A common personality trait among alcoholics and addicts is the need for instant gratification. For me, it became the drive to continue to abuse alcohol, even when I knew it was destroying my life.
I self-medicated, hoping that I would experience that instant feeling of escape and that my problems would go away. In reality, I was not escaping from the world, I was escaping from myself. I made all my problems worse and the need to escape them even stronger.
In order for me to live sober, I had to find other ways to get that instant sense of euphoria. I knew I couldn’t find it sitting still, isolating or wishing things were different. I had to take action.
It was important that I find things to do that would give me a sense of accomplishment in my life – doing something positive and getting creative. I started doing hobbies that I had long put away because of alcohol. I made a point of finding new outlets for my energy, and found a way to balance my life between work, recovery activities and quiet time. I realize now that this has been a big step towards being happy and healthy in sobriety.